Will I ever learn?

So I talked to Cynthia, my second last girl friend.

She's been quite nice to me lately, throwing me a smiley or say hi on MSN when she sees me. I assume this is because she's got a new boy friend and a busy job, so I congratulated her and said I'm really happy for her (which I really am). In return of my good will she questioned sharply my intentions.

All of a sudden, I remembered why I wanted to break up with her in the first place.

It's really quite pathetic, you see. I'm sure most man on this planet would agree that she's a punishing, bitter woman who's never satisfied with her relationships. Yet I dated her for five years, and in the process developed an incredible patience for women; only to suffer an extremely torturing breakup which probably should have happened years before.

And I still don't learn, or even remember. Forgiving is a virtue, but I suspect I just forget and gets reminded at some stage, which will then lead to another round of excruciatingly painful conversation.

I need to learn to remember.